The Waiting

So, let's just say a lot has happened since my last post. I met a lady through a website and she said she was working with a single man. I asked a little about him and I don't know,  something just clicked. It all happened in a flash, it seemed. I was able to to my psychological evaluation and fax in all the necessary preliminary paperwork right away! So it seems we will be able to have my medical screening within the next few weeks.

I am hoping it is sooner than later. I don't want to rush, but it's just so exciting. I had not imagined I would be this far along in the process already. I thought maybe by April or May I would meet my perfect match. So hey, hey!

I am excited, not only for the appointment...but to meet the dad. It is just so weird. "Hi there, I'm your baby mama...er...your carrier...your baby's hotel..."? Hahahha. Maybe I over think things. Maybe I just want things to be perfect. I don't want to ruin any expectations of his...or make anyone feel weird or awkward.

Anyway, it's all been a little overwhelming. The good kind of overwhelming. The kind that makes you excited and happy. I was honestly hoping to get into better shape before this happened. 4 babies and the last 2 being back-to-back does a lot to a woman. But I'm not terrible looking. I hope.

Signing off for now!

Love,
 Amanda

The Beginning

So here I am again. 3 little girls and an amazing surrogacy later, here I am. I have the urge for another pregnancy.  I don't know if I will be able to explain it correctly and even if I could I think it might be something only another surrogate could understand. I had such amazing feelings from my previous surrogacy,  it's a feeling like nothing else in the world. Carrying this little bundle of joy and at the end, starting a whole new chapter in someone else's life. It brings together a whole bunch of feelings. Feelings of sadness, because it is something they obviously couldn't achieve on their own. It brings pain- the injections, the blood work, the creams, pills, etc.  Then the feelings of joy, happiness, and a sense of accomplishment. Surrogacy has given me a sisterhood, knowing I have women (some I have never even met in person) who I can call my best friends. It has also given me a new family.

It is something that is very challenging at times, but also very rewarding. It is a journey that I am hoping to go through again. This is a very exciting time for me. I know what to expect, as far as the process... but at the same time I don't. I have an amazing support system and I am hoping to add some new people into my life, for good. I have signed up with an agency and now, we wait!

Cheers!